One of the many first I have wished I didn't have to face has arrived.
At this moment I am alone in my home. It is 9:30am, my mom and boys left for breakfast out and I remained home to continue preparing a meal for 21 hungry mouths later today. The second onion I diced was a doosy and caused a few tears so I decided to step away from the kitchen to write down a few of my thoughts.
Today is the 11 month point since my husband's passing, it's Thanksgiving and son #1's 30th birthday. In the midst of unspeakable pain there is so much to be thankful for. A new friend and co-widow asked me to share 10 things I am thankful for which she has shared on her blog here.
Sadness is a portion of my emotions today, yet there is Joy which pulses from my inner most being. The Joy that only God can create in a heart that has been torn and depleted. Today, I am grateful for Joy, The Joy of The Lord, It truly IS my strength Today!!!
Please join me in wishing my Andrew a Happy 30th Birthday and now I will get back to the Kitchen before something burns!!!
Mystery laced with love, tragedy, loss and new beginnings are words that come to mind as I recall the read I just finished. Sea Change A Novel by the author of Salt, Jeremy Page pulled me in from the first chapter.
Beckoning me as I read each word, intrigued to understand the circumstance in which they were facing. But as tragedy and loss claimed a man's mind, the story takes an interesting turn. Lost in the 'what might have been' yet living in the reality of, Guy begins a written journey of the life he could only hope to have.
As I have lived the past 10 months grieving the loss of my beloved husband, I felt compelled in some ways to befriend Guy as he faced life alone following tragedy and loss. You lose sight of reality and who you are when faced with life alone after so many years together. Through the written word, Guy attempted to soothe his grief and live the life he dreamed would have been. At the same time, he journeyed alone in a boat called Flood with very little hope of a new beginning.
I must say that there were moments during this read that were sad and even confusing, yet as I began to feel the heart of Guy, and measure it against my own grief walk, I could understand and even sympathize with him.
One caution: this book does deal with the death of a child!
You can learn more about Sea Change here and here.
Though I did receive a copy of this book and a small compensation, the thoughts and above review are my own.