Hello from MIA and I need your input

Hello Sweet Friends

I know I have been MIA for so many months that I'm not sure anyone is still out there.

It has been a grueling and HARD year for me.

I have not taken care of myself and put all of my energy into taking care of others and other things.

My youngest son has moved into a group home, 

that was on February 3rd of this year.

I see him every weekend, take him to dinner and do a bit of shopping for his 'wants'.

He still struggles with not being here, 

but he is in the best place for now.

My oldest son moved to Texas on February 10th of this year.

After commuting for several months, 

his wife and daughters have now joined him.

I purchased a home for them in Mineral Wells, TX.

I made a quick trip out there in July to sign papers and 

help get them settled.

Oh my how I MISS THOSE GIRLS

As I began coming to terms with being an empty nester (alone)

After 33 years of care giving for my special need son

And 10 years of care giving for my late husband

It seems my mom will need extra care and time

I have been taking her to doctor appointments almost every week

We have 2 next week and 2 the following week

There is a possibility that she may come live with me

Sometime in the future (more near than we might like)

But that is a last resort, it depends on what all the test results are

I believe my caretaking days are not over

With all that said and SO SO SO much left out

I am asking for input

In 61 days I will turn 60

As I approached 50 (a decade ago)

My life was so very different and I embraced the change

Planned many fun events and enjoyed life

Today, life is not so fun

I'm extremely tired, worn down and battle depression

To the point I have had serious thoughts that I won't share

My goal is to begin to embrace 60 with Joy

And Hopefulness instead of hopelessness

I want to celebrate the next 60 days in special ways

Here is where YOU come in

I need ideas

Ideas of what small things I can do each day to Love myself

I'm talking things that don't cost a lot of money

And don't take up tons of time (that I don't have)

Here are a few of my own ideas:

A pedicure (I haven't had one in more than a year)

A Vacation DAY for myself and NOT a doctor appointment

(I haven't had one of those in over a year either)

Go see a movie (can't remember that last time I did that)

Finish a Project or two or thirty!!!

Read a magazine - WHAT???

You can see, I have not treated myself with any love, 

respect of gentleness

For more than a year, 

In fact it is probably more than a decade.

I try very hard to put others needs before myself and 

I believe that is good (in general)

But I am 'nearly' at my highest weight ever

Am battling anemia 'again'

Battle depression and would rather pull the covers up over my head

And stay in bed all day, than to get up an leave the house

I am in excruciating pain everyday

I take way too much Excedrin and suffer from insomnia

I MUST make some changes and I want this to be a start

60 Days to 60

What should I do??

My One Word

Happy Weekend Sweet Friends

I started this post on January 3, 2017
I believe I have already failed my Word

Accomplish is the word that has been
bombarding my thoughts for the past several weeks
So far, I have one project accomplished with
Many, Many more to go

It seems I Love to start projects but I am a
Procrastinator by nature
(Ouch)

This is the year, for numerous reasons,
I need to accomplish projects and set aside the
procrastination trait

For the first time since Mark's passing
(6 years)
I truly DO have goals and plans
Lists and desires
This is the Year to rejoice in today

The necklace I wear says: Embrace The Moment
The ring I wear says: Nothing is Impossible

With those reminders
It is My Year to Accomplish and move forward

I even went to church last weekend
For the first time in more than a year

Yes, it's a new day
A new year
A new attitude
And a new WORD

God is Able
Even in Me

Blessings~~~

Busy In Pictures

Hi Sweet Friends

Thank you for stopping by

As you may have guessed from my last post

It's been a rough and sad week

For several people I know and love

Today

I thought I'd just share ways

That I have managed to stay busy

And keep my mind and heart from feeling sad

Are you ready?

1. I packed up and put away all of my Easter décor

2. I changed the headlights on my car

Well,

After my oldest son helped me realize that I was trying to change the wrong one

And after he changed the right one

I watched - LOL

But, at least I purchased the right one :)

3. I had to have my water heater replaced

AGAIN!!

After only 18 months

The thing fried itself up

And a new one needed to be installed

Unfortunately, I had to pay AGAIN!! :(

4. I am in the process of draining the pool

The color is not beautiful or inviting

And now that my backyard neighbor cut down his tree

I can finally clean the pool

And hopefully it will stay clean Forever!!

5. I got Many Loads of laundry washed, dried, and put away

YAY!!

6. Yard Work and

More Yard Work

7. I got another bag of clothing ready to give away

That always makes me happy

8. And - Really

There are some pretty spots in my yard

I'm working hard to get more pretties happening around here

Instead of so many spots like this:

Busy does help keep my mind from

Going places it should not go

And, it helps make a new week feel less stressful

Praying for my friends

Praying that God has blessed your weekend

And praying that you see HIM

As you head into Monday

Blessings!