Tuesday, October 23, 2018

This Eve

As I write on the eve of what will be
The beginning of my 7th decade on this earth
I ponder 60 years of life

Grateful is a word that is 
Prevalent on my lips
So many wonderful memories tucked
Away in my heart

Treasured are 30 years of marriage
To a man who loved me well
Though he is missed daily
I treasure the gift of his presence

Adoption: another treasured word
Not only has God blessed my life
With two amazing sons through adoption
His love for us means we are 
Adopted into His forever family
How amazing is that

Family, more precious than jewels
So many that God has placed in my life
Grateful for each and every one
I wear their love around my neck with honor

Friendships, both far and near
Grateful cannot suffice in depth of those 
Whose love and faithful understanding
Have truly saved my life at times

Work/Jobs have afforded me opportunities
To live a life of comfort
But more importantly, they have blessed
My life with community and courage

The House of God
Feast or Famine, no matter the season
I believe that God's House is a Great and Mighty
Place of peace, rest and maturing

Seasons, dry, hard, dark at times
Joy-Filled as well
Yet, in all of them there are
Treasured moments of Increase and Change

Oh change, always abundant in life
Never shall our lives remain in stale vapidity
Change is ever present
This year has been no different

More so than in previous years
Both children have moved away
As have my DIL and granddaughters
Leaving my home empty and devoid of warmth

A brother and his family 
A momma also following suit
Gone to new adventures
But not forgotten

A business lost to rising rents
Those friends dispersed into varied locations
Change, oh crazy change
 I have saved the next for tomorrow

Another change, another life decision
Adventure or Stagnation

Where will God lead?
Will my will bow to His 
Can I let go of comfort, of contentment
To allow HIS plan to unfold?

Change, oh crazy change
Where will this 7th decade take me?

No matter where it leads my prayer is that, YOU
My faithful friends
Will continue to watch God move 
And join me on my next adventure!!

Thursday, October 4, 2018

Recreating ... Not the Answer

Hi Sweet Friends

It seems like a lifetime ago
In the weeks leading up to my 50th Birthday
I challenged myself to try new things
Face some fears
And reach for far off dreams

I did Canon Balls in my pool
Played my piano daily
And vowed to stand on the edge
Of the Grand Canyon to see the sun rise

My fear of heights was No match
For my Dream to be their
I did … And so did my husband and sons

It was a time of strength, growing
Nothing could stop me from
Embracing a new decade and enjoying life

Life is so different
My husband has been with Jesus for nearly 8 years
My oldest son and his family live in Texas
My youngest son lives away in a group home
I am here … Alone … 
Trying to recreate my 50
It's Not The Answer

It's taken me 40 days to realize
That I was trying to recreate a time in my life
But it is Not were I am today
I cannot go back
I cannot recreate

I desperately want to embrace 60
In the same way I did 50
Yet, I am not the same
Nor is my Life

I'm done with 60 to 60

I bought myself some flowers
After work yesterday
Just Because

I treated myself to a pedicure today
Just Because

I don't know what the next 20 days hold
I just know, It will be different
It won't be a Joy-Filled journey 
To the next decade with my family

But, It Will Be...