Day {30} of 60 to 60

Hi Friends

Welcome to Day {30}

Of my 60 days to 60

Half way there and being honest

It's been a tough few days for me

I won't bore you with details

Here are a few photos from the past 5 days

I treated myself to a post rain storm walk

Although there were no rainbows

I found the gold for the day

ADOT

Sure can come up with some fun 

Highway signs

Caught the 'love' sign this week

Got my Flu Shot

Important when you work in a pediatric office

Received a new piece of AZ petrified wood

To go with the two I already had

Cleaned out my [2] sock drawers

Some sweet people received some brand new socks this week

And, I reduced my collection to only [1] drawer

However, a friend had challenged me to reduce this by 1/2

Not sure it will happen, but I'll try

Had my Sunday dinner with kiddo #2

Where did we eat this week?

Yep, Texas Roadhouse Again

He LOVES Steak

Little glimpse of the full moon

Need to learn more about my camera

Volunteer Night

Thanks for stopping by

IF you happen to think of me this week

I sure could use prayers

Blessings to YOU 

Hello from MIA and I need your input

Hello Sweet Friends

I know I have been MIA for so many months that I'm not sure anyone is still out there.

It has been a grueling and HARD year for me.

I have not taken care of myself and put all of my energy into taking care of others and other things.

My youngest son has moved into a group home, 

that was on February 3rd of this year.

I see him every weekend, take him to dinner and do a bit of shopping for his 'wants'.

He still struggles with not being here, 

but he is in the best place for now.

My oldest son moved to Texas on February 10th of this year.

After commuting for several months, 

his wife and daughters have now joined him.

I purchased a home for them in Mineral Wells, TX.

I made a quick trip out there in July to sign papers and 

help get them settled.

Oh my how I MISS THOSE GIRLS

As I began coming to terms with being an empty nester (alone)

After 33 years of care giving for my special need son

And 10 years of care giving for my late husband

It seems my mom will need extra care and time

I have been taking her to doctor appointments almost every week

We have 2 next week and 2 the following week

There is a possibility that she may come live with me

Sometime in the future (more near than we might like)

But that is a last resort, it depends on what all the test results are

I believe my caretaking days are not over

With all that said and SO SO SO much left out

I am asking for input

In 61 days I will turn 60

As I approached 50 (a decade ago)

My life was so very different and I embraced the change

Planned many fun events and enjoyed life

Today, life is not so fun

I'm extremely tired, worn down and battle depression

To the point I have had serious thoughts that I won't share

My goal is to begin to embrace 60 with Joy

And Hopefulness instead of hopelessness

I want to celebrate the next 60 days in special ways

Here is where YOU come in

I need ideas

Ideas of what small things I can do each day to Love myself

I'm talking things that don't cost a lot of money

And don't take up tons of time (that I don't have)

Here are a few of my own ideas:

A pedicure (I haven't had one in more than a year)

A Vacation DAY for myself and NOT a doctor appointment

(I haven't had one of those in over a year either)

Go see a movie (can't remember that last time I did that)

Finish a Project or two or thirty!!!

Read a magazine - WHAT???

You can see, I have not treated myself with any love, 

respect of gentleness

For more than a year, 

In fact it is probably more than a decade.

I try very hard to put others needs before myself and 

I believe that is good (in general)

But I am 'nearly' at my highest weight ever

Am battling anemia 'again'

Battle depression and would rather pull the covers up over my head

And stay in bed all day, than to get up an leave the house

I am in excruciating pain everyday

I take way too much Excedrin and suffer from insomnia

I MUST make some changes and I want this to be a start

60 Days to 60

What should I do??

Mini Hospital Vacay

Hi Sweet Friends,

Well, It has been a Very Long,
Interesting and Difficult Week

Last Saturday at about 1 am I woke up not feeling well
By 2 am I decided to drive myself to the ER
I was having numbness and tingling in my mouth,
Lips and under my left arm
So, my mini hospital vacay began

Let me tell you that the view from my suite was gorgeous
Especially in the early morning hours
The sky was ablaze with fire
And if I didn't look too closely
I could almost convince myself I was waking up on the beach
 

I spent lots of time with my feet up

Just relaxing the days away

 

With Palm Trees swaying in the morning breeze
Room service delivered meals to my bedside
Three times per day
And, If I needed anything at any other time
All I had to do was ring my bell
And some sweet person would come running to assist me
 

I received personal attention
And my body received many nice services
Massages were received while the MRI was banging away
I had what I think was acupuncture to relax my heart
*or maybe those were electrodes*
I enjoyed an awesome photo shoot of my heart
And, those fun games I got to play every two hours
Were just what I needed to rest my mind (HAHA)
 

It was a joy to try on many expensive pieces of jewelry
But in the end I decided to leave most of them behind
Although I did take home 2 cute bracelets
 

Oh, and while I was 'resting'
My son decided to cut himself 
And guess what?
He got a personal ride to the hospital in an ambulance

Yep! It was an interesting vacay

Now, seriously
I am home with a medication change and doing very well
What they thought was a stroke in progress
Ended up being 
Hypertensive Urgency and possible a TIA

They made a good blood pressure medication change
And I am responding to that very well
I go to my PCP in 2 weeks
I really am feeling well

My son, on the other hand
Has been transferred to a mental health facility
Where, I am praying, he is receiving some much needed
Therapy and counseling

We both have a very difficult road ahead of us
If he is insistent on making the changes in his life
That he has spoken of

My momma heart is still broken
I am overwhelmed with sadness and concern
But believing, all that we have experienced in the past week
Will lead to answers and a plan of action
For my son and myself

In other news:
My birthday is next week
And I am Just Praying for better days

I promise to get by and visit your blogs
And to answer your emails
I've just been trying to get through the days

You are a blessing to me
And I'm grateful for your visits

 Finding JOY in the Midst