Tuesday, May 16, 2017

Some Years and Better Than Others

This year has been tough
Well, This Day

Today would have been our 36th wedding anniversary
But God saw differently
And I'm sad

Today, I'm lonely and tired of being so
I Never thought I'd be a widow
Never thought he'd be gone so young

I am thankful for good memories
But also and honestly bitter for all that
Could have been, but wasn't
Is that wrong?
I feel angry today
And, let down
And, abandoned
And, unworthy
And, sin~filled
And, tired
And, unloved

Nothing is different today than yesterday
But today...I just feel off
I want to scream and cry and pout
But, I had to work and be up and be mom
And, I didn't want to be

Honestly, I just Don't Want To Be