It has been a struggle today
Deciding if I should post or not
Many think that it's been long enough
And I should let go of the past
Yet, when you spend 30+ years loving someone
You just don't let go so easily
Today would have been Mark's birthday
We always had a huge birthday party
On New Year's Eve
Because my brother and brother-in-law
Both had birthday's on the 29th
It became a family tradition to celebrate together
Well, it's more difficult to spend
New Year's Eve alone
I just miss my Mark so much
Below are just a few of my favorite photo's
And they help remind me of the
30 wonderful years I was blessed
To spend with the love of my life
Happy Birthday in Heaven Mark
Happy New Year To You All
Happy Birthday Mark!ReplyDelete
Letting go and remembering the past are two entirely different things in my humble opinion. Honoring the memory of your Mark's birthday so he could eventually spend 30 years with you is a blessed thing to do. Blessings to you.ReplyDelete
Okay, as someone who is right with you on this journey, people who have never been here do not understand, so let me educate them a bit. There is a monstrous difference between holding on to the past and getting stuck in it and remembering while moving forward. I go through the same thing. Remembering is just that. Re-membering. Thinking about it again. It doesn't mean I live there. Still, we were married 19 years (my entire adulte life) and had two kids together. For me not to remember means blocking my entire adult life and my kids' lives until 3 years ago. Um. No. What a stupid idea that is. So, I remember sometimes and move forward with new hopes, new activities, being Jerri--the single woman and the mom. It's the birthday of the man you spent much of your life with. Yes. It is hard not spending it with him. Yes. You are still choosing to embrace possibilities and life as a single woman and mom. Sounds like you are doing great to me. :-)
Happy New Year, my friend. May next year be yet another great year for the memory books!!!
Dearest Cindy ~ The photos have tears streaming for the loss of your dear Mark.ReplyDelete
I think those who tell you to move along, don't understand the depth of the relationship you were blessed with with your husband, lover and best friend. How on earth can you just put into the past something that has been your life for so long? You can't. You can move forward, but loving memories fill your being with joy and thankfulness. We're not brain dead. Part of ourselves has been taken away though and now we learn to live differently.
Our dear husbands and other loved ones are just on the other side of the veil, with Jesus our Great God. One day we will be reunited and it will seem like a very short time we were separated.
I'm sure Mark had a wonderful birthday celebration with Jesus and all the 'gang' of believers.
Love and hugs to you ~ FlowerLady