Sunday, September 16, 2012

Continuing The Surrender

One thing I have definitely learned
On this journey through grief
Is that is it a process of surrendering.

Surrendering my will to the will of The Father
Surrendering my thoughts to His thoughts
Surrendering my plans to His purpose

It is also a journey of letting go
Of which I seem to becoming
More accustomed to
Yet, there are still times and 'items' 
That I have a harder time letting go of

In recent days I have finally begun to tackle Mark's desk
He had one special drawer that he kept his personal belonging in

 In this place
I have found his wallet, keys, glasses, and a host of other
personal things that truly were him

So, I sat down in his chair
To go through his things

Medications, personal notes, lists and money
Were among some of the items

This little cross
Which has now found a home in my purse

This tag that he has had on his key ring
For so many years

A host of lotions and skin medications
Used to tackle skin cancers and the effects
Of numerous other meds
Which left his skin thin, bruised and bloody

And then his myriad of gum
I didn't realize just how much he loved this stuff

I was able to tackle at least 1/2 of it
But when it came to the truly personal stuff
I just decided to put it back in the drawer for another day

Yes, it is a process
One I was not prepared for
But one that is preparing me for the future
I'm surrendered
And looking forward :)


  1. Blessings to you, Cindy. You do what you can, when you can.

  2. Praying for you, sweet Cindy as you continue the journey.

    Gentle hugs (((((Cindy)))))



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