In whom do I place my trust?
It has become increasingly evident in my life that I have placed too much trust, hope, faith, and expectation in people. Disappointment follows when my trust is in the wrong place. My heart has been broken time and time again in the past two years as I have trusted my friends, family, church family, co-workers, children and husband to meet my expectations. I trust that they will make the right choices, hold a confidence and be faithful to what 'I' believe is right.
Guess what? It hasn't happened the way I thought it should. Friends have betrayed a confidence, children have made choices I don't agree with, church family have lied and gossiped, there has even been a betrayal of trust in a 27 year marriage.
Who am I to set the standard that others should live by? Where do I go from here?
I am learning to 'Consider it all Joy'. None of the hurtful events of the passed two years make me happy but it brings me joy because as I journey through the pain I am learning more about who God is. And, I am learning 'where' to place my trust.
"Blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, whose confidence is in him. He will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its roots by the stream. It does not fear when heat comes; its leaves are always green. It has no worries in a year of drought and never fails to bear fruit." Jeremiah 17:7-8
I, and each of the people in my life who have 'hurt or betrayed' me are human. We were all made in the image of God yet, we are not God, we are not perfect. We are learning to die to self and be a reflection of who God is.
"A gossip betrays a confidence, but a trustworthy man keeps a secret." Proverbs 11:13
I would love to believe that there are trustworthy people in this world. I would love to believe that I am truly trustworthy at all times. I fail the test. We all fail.
My precious Lord has been teaching me, especially over the past two days, that my trust must be in Him and Him alone. He is my creator. He knows my heart. He knows my needs.
I will continue to love, to be vulnerable, to share my heart with others and even my failings. But I think I have come to realize that my untimate trust must be in God for when disappointment comes He will here.
"When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze," says the Lord". Isaiah 43:2
Today is a new day filled with hope. I stand on God's word, on His promises to be with me no matter what I may face. It will be a joy filled day!