Sunday, March 8, 2009

Spillin' Some Beans!

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Have you ever heard the term: "Don't Spill The Beans?"

I suppose it kind of means: Don't tell or I've got a secret I don't want any body to know.

Well Girlfriends - tonight I'm going to spill some beans.

No, I don't have some wonderful secret I've been waiting to share, I just want to share some of where I have been and what's going on in my life that has kept me from my bloggy friends for the past several months.

First of all, it is official, my husband can no longer work and has applied for disability. That in itself has been a very difficult decision and process. The decision came because, quite frankly, his body is just tired and broken down due to all of the immunosuppressants he has taken over the past 5+ years. Details don't need to be shared but, as a wife of nearly 28 years, it is very hard to watch this process.

Depression is a word now used in our home as he battles his own feelings and ponders his future.

With that said, other changes have followed. The process of applying for disability is a slow one. In the mean time I have taken on a third job as well as continuing to build a small business.

I now work my regular full-time medical administration job, which I love, I also work about 15 hours a week doing habilitation with my son, and now I work at night cleaning a medical office.

I continue to teach a ladies Bible study every other Tuesday evening at our church, which I also love. And, as always, I am still a wife, mom, nana, daughter, sister, auntie and friend to others.

My purpose in 'spillin' the beans is not to plead for sympathy but to Glorify my God who gives strength and wisdom to His children.

In church this morning we were singing a great song and these words spoke volumes to my soul: "It's Your Joy that gives me strength to go the distance".

My heart desires to visit each of your blogs sometime this week, but my physical body may not be able to sit at my computer enough to do so, yet I am with each of you in the spirit.

I covet your prayers for His Joy to be My Strength over these next weeks and months as we walk a new path and keep our hearts and spirits focused on HIM.

I, in turn, will be praying for you, my bloggy friends and family. You have lifted us up and I am here to do the same. Just know that in the night as I am cleaning a medical office somewhere in AZ, I am using that time to PRAY!!!! Isn't God Great - He gives us time to spend with HIM in strange and different ways!

As Always, Considering It ALL JOY!!!
Cindy

20 comments:

  1. didn't get to chat this morning...let me know if I can help you out in any way!!!! I am pretty good at cleaning, so if you need a hand...please call me!!!

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  2. love the words to that song. thanks for sharing them.

    God never promised that our lives would be easy but you sure do show us that they can be joy filled!!

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  3. ""It's Your Joy that gives me strength to go the distance".

    Claiming that truth. Thanks for the assurance today. Praying for you.

    Blessings,
    Joy

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  4. What an honoring post to the Father who has sustained...

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  5. I have you in my prayer journal and am continuing to lift you and your family before the Lord. Love and blessings...

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  6. It was so good to hear from you. Praying for you too!

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  7. My prayers are with you and He does indeed have all you need to sustain you and to just sustain you but may your cup runneth over! You certainly have a servants heart!

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  8. Wow, dear friend, you've had alot going on.

    I am blessed to see how Papa God is carrying you...

    I loved the verse of that song, it's so true...

    Hugs from Georgia!

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  9. I've been reading your blog for sometime now and just feel the need to let you know I care.

    We lost our 16 year old son, Joshua, in November, 2003. My point with this is I know how hard depression truly is. I stay in a depressed more from October-March every year since we lost Joshua.

    Surround yourself with Christian friends, guidance and love. Sometimes I don't find myself doing that and my soul suffers for it.

    Please know that I lift you up in prayer.

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  10. So glad I came across your blog.

    Praying for you and your entire family.

    I am new to the blog world, but love the new friends I am making.

    Teresa

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  11. Praying for you, and I'm so encouraged by your posts.

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  12. Wow......I needed to read this.

    I'm praying for you sweet friend. Much love and God's sustaining strength!!

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  13. God's blessings on you and your family. I have been trying to praise God when we win and when we lose. I have heard if the Lord leads you to it He'll get you through it!

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  15. Share some love and help pass a secret...Tomorrow is Nichole's birthday (livingmylifeonpurpose)she needs a little joy in her life and stopping by her blog, would show her love...
    Thanks
    Love,Hugs and Prayers
    Laurie
    Let's flood her with birthday wishes..

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  16. I'm going to search for that song right now, sounds like just what I need tonight. Love ya! Thanks for sharing your heart...praying for you.

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  17. I've been out of the blogging world lately and am just resurfacing. Glad to come back to yours and read your stuff. May you find real rest when you need it and the ability to ask for help so others can minister and be blessed....that is my struggle. I'm praying tonight!

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  18. Hey, girlfriend! Bless you heart! I have been thinking about you! Thank you for "spillin' the beans!" It helps us to better pray for you! God knows everything before it's on the tip of our tongue...He is guarding you and your family during this season. Bless Him for His glory! And bless you for continuing to glorify Him in all that you do!! You are in my prayers, Cindy!

    Hugs,
    Susan

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  19. Wow; you do have so much going on in your life! You will need God's strength and He will give you what you need and when you need it. Thanks for sharing this with your blogging sisters so we can pray for you.

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Hi Friend, I read and cherish every single comment you leave! You bring Joy to my heart! Blessings, Cindy